Reality

I finally found out why i've been so different lately. I found out why i've been so frustrated. I have never really thought of it until now. It is because I am trying to hide from reality. Worries are worries. You cannot tell yourself to forget about them. Positive thinking always helps, but they don't get rid of your troubles. People tend to make themselves feel better by lying and telling themselves that everything is going to be okay, but in reality, you never know what will/can happen. It's really up to God. He decides on what is going to happen.
I've been clingy for company lately. Clingy to the people that can make me happy. The people that can make me laugh and smile even through these days. I apologize for being annoying. When someone has nothing to do at all, especially at home, they tend to think about a lot of things. I know I do. When you start thinking about something, you start to think of other things, such as the troubles you are going through. Sometimes it's bad to think too much. That's why nowadays, I've played the role of "that annoying person that keeps calling". hah. That's also why I've asked for a lot of attention. I have never really complained for attention before until now.
I'm going to contradict myself, by saying that worrying and thinking too much about problems that you cannot do anything about, is probably my worst habit. Plus, it's not good for you, and is considered a sin. God does not want you to worry. If you pray to Him, and trust Him, everything will be fine. It's the truth.